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my bro had fever last friday, we thought that it was just his feet (his usual 'problem') but when sunday came his fever reached 40.2 so we decided to take him to the hospital for check up. he had his CBC checked and he had urinalysis. the CBC result states the he has 186 platelet count (150-350 ang normal)... he also had UTI. the internist gave him antibiotic for his UTI and some meds for his fever and dry cough. that night, he didn't eat lunch and dinner but still he ask for his meds and i gave it. by dawn i heard that he's cough hard, and even vomits. by then we decided to take him again to the hospital and there again had his CBC... and the result is 146. so they decided to admit him to monitor his platelet.

when my bro is already in his room, i asked permission from the nurses' station that i'll just go home to get all his things and to pick up ate nancy (my tita's maid) as his bantay. sadly, it was a hospital rule that "patients should not be left alone". unfortunately too, our TODA had a strike... hindi sila nagpapasakay... tapat pa nung kailangan ko si ate nancy kaya hindi rin nakapunta agad. hay! i signed a waiver stating that i'll be back in 30 minutes, that i'll just pick up my bro's stuff and ate nancy. hindi pa ako nag-aalmusal nun, gutom na ako, mga 6am kami nagpunta hospital. i drove back home and in 15 minutes, we're back at the hospital. sa pacita lang naman naconfine si utol, at pinaready ko na dito ang mga gamit nya at pinalakad ko na lang si ate nancy dito sa amin para hindi na magko-consume ng time kapag sa bahay ko pa siya sinundo.

magulo ang setup namin, kung hindi ako nilalagnat, hindi na doon sa tita ko matutulog si macoy (my nephew). by morning, susunduin ko or hubby ko sila macoy at ate nancy, iiwan si macoy dito, then ihahatid si ate nancy sa hospital, palit na sila ng katulong naming si marie (siya kasi ang bantay sa gabi). kapag mga 4:30pm, ihahatid na si marie, palit na sila ni ate nancy, susunduin si macoy dito at ihahatid namin sa bahay. hay.

last monday, after been busy the whole day, nagkasakit naman ako.. nilalagnat ako. then this morning, nagpacheck up na ako... kasi on and off ang lagnat ko... of course, pina-CBC ako. thank God, mataas pa ang platelet count ko. kaya kapag nawala na raw ang lagnat ko tom, papa-CBC ulit ako or sa 5th day of incubation ng dengue which is sa friday.

as of 6pm, bumaba pa rin ang platelet count ni utol... naku, kung bababa pa yun tom, baka sasalinan sya ng dugo... =( we always tell him that he should help himself... kumain sya ng kumain at uminom ng uminom ng tubig, juice at milk.

nakakaawa kasi si madir, nasa malayo pa naman sya at alalang-alala. gusto na nga raw nya tuloy umuwi for good kasi nga feeling nya, pinababayaan namin mga sarili namin... ganyan talaga ang mga madir. sabi ko tuloy kay ma, "ma, malalaki na po kami, we just need your guidance hindi po bantay." baka kasi si madir naman ang magkasakit sa pag-aalala, wag naman po sana, Lord.

"LORD, i pray to you na tumaas na po ang platelet count ni utol ngayon overnight. Ako naman po eh sana hindi rin dengue itong sakit ko, wish ko po hindi na bababa ang platelet count ko at sana po gumaling na po ako. Please, LORD. Amen."